A walk to remember...: 2012

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"....have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.”

― Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Hush...

I lock myself in

I lock myself out

Try not to weather in

Every whim that fancies a doubt

I push myself here

I push myself there

Want to push away that thought

That follows me everywhere

Unwritten

Why live like this?

When you know you can change

Why drive life amiss?

When you can stop and re-arrange

Why turn away?

When you can turn around

Why miss a day?

When you can go forth and re-bound

Why shut yourself?

When you know you can resist

Why shun everything else?

When you believe, you can persist

Why me?

If death came knocking on my door

I’d gladly open it and let it in…
It couldn't scare me, not anymore

If pain came along and asked me if I wanted more

I’d have to humbly decline…

For my basket was already full and overflowing

Feelings...

Why do you come?

Where do you go?

A little bit I care for some

A bit more as you grow

A touch of love

As white as a dove

A hint of pain

That sometimes drives me insane

Wishing I...

Wishing I was new

Wishing I was different

Wishing I was free..

There are but a few

Moments left to lament

Every second up that tree

Lost key....

Rummaging my attic

I found a lost key

That had just lain there static

Through all the years I was born to see

It looked ancient

And yet in the light shone

A brooding darkness that was patient

Through every tragedy it had borne

Beyond my horizon....

In the beauty

Of a full moon night

I look for you

From behind the branches

That reach so far away

While sending back shivers

Through the leaves

That rustle whispers

In my ears

Of your voice…

I can almost feel

The pinching wind

Breezing through my hair

Leaving a whiff of your scent

That I breathe in…

…In want of more

Undone

Not then

I did not

Not now

I know not

Now on

I get it

From back then

Bit by bit

It’s all clear

Through thick and thin

No fear

Burning bright within

It hurt

Quite a lot

Turned dirt

As I fought

Tried not

Moving on...

Far forever to trot

With faith in a knot

In silence I sought

The one thing…

I paid more than I bought

For in that pact

I wrote to hold intact

I unearthed a fact

I had to react

Endless nights...

Endless nights

Flickering lights

Craving delights

Silent fights

Hushed silences

Fateful reminisces

Towering fences

Open lenses

Let it happen...

A time undone

Let love define

A path beckons

To life refine

Soak in illusion

As silkworms weave

An unparalleled fusion

From a changing sieve

Affirmations...

Like this I will always follow my dream...

Like this I will always be strong to tackle anything that comes my way...

Like this no matter how great the temporary obstacle in my way, I will move on stronger and with the willpower that I can achieve what I set out to...

Like this I will always believe in all that is good and positive and pray that it will come my way...

Like this I will do more than speak, learn and observe more than crib...

Like this I will walk with my head held high and take every step with pride...